Dramatic Me
Dramatic Me
I realised I could hurt another person early on
When I punched my brother in the arm
He was 5 and I was 8
He whipped me with his trousers after school
And I used to run away
One day I snapped and I hit back
With the intention of hurting him
His smile turned upside down
And he cried
As his trousers fell to the ground
I felt bad and decided then
That I didn't want to hit anybody again
So instead my anger channels into words
And forms all my deepest blades
At points I've forgotten my decision
And deliberately used words with the intention
Of making someone else feel bad
With a keen eye for weakness
I know what to say
To have positive or negative influence on somebody
And I try my best to be my best
The version of me that feels like LSD
But life's a complex trip
And it's easy to forget
The things we've chosen in our own heads
Especially when we're stuck in drama
I'm not always the little boy with a protective streak for his brother
Sometimes I'm the predator
The sociopath
The martyr
I want to try and be some sort of saviour
But I also want to enjoy all of the flavours
I want what's best for me and I want what's best for others
I want to be your friend but I also want to be your lover
I am no-one other than everyone I can be
I've (thankfully) lived a great life so I'm happy to be me
I love my shape
I love my smile
I love the way I can make others smile
I love that I can be an asshole when I choose to be
It can even be fun to argue when I'm not taking myself seriously
I am strong and my own will matters
But to live for only me is to end up like the hatters
Because the deepest truth of the matter is
There's only One of us here
And if I live like that then that's all I'll notice
But if I choose to engage, after accepting the One
Then me, my family and friends can all have fun
We'll sing and dance the drama out
We'll wear great costumes all about
We'll help each other when we're down
We'll radiate Love into towns
The world is waking up
As I awake myself
As I choose to love myself more
The world chooses to love itself more
Me first is the same thing as everyone else first
But don't go too far in either direction
If you want to find the middle
Because that's where I am